I got some film from the end of this summer developed the other day; the above were from an expired disposable camera and even though they are unique moments, I feel like I've lived them all hundreds of times before. how many times have I looked up at that building? (the only on lehigh university's campus to house any art/architecture programs) I'll tell you, it's as many times as I've gone to tulum for quesadillas or burritos with my friends. I've walked home from wired with jessie countless times and even though our conversations and photographs taken of those walks felt important and immediate, they all happened before, between the same people, about the same things and on the same streets.
what I'm saying is, this town is too familiar to me anymore. it's a comforting place for a while, but then it just becomes suffocating. I'm ready for something new but no one else here is.

(I'll admit, that last photo was from a fun/slow day at work. juan and I stacked some cups)

winter-break laziness is setting in. woke up at 7:30, went back to sleep til 10:30, dicked around on the internet/made my page for the PF site til 1:00 and now I'm eating leftover chili and drinking soymilk from the carton in an empty house. all I can say is: life could be worse.

also, I'm realizing how much I missed living above ground and with really nice light.

also, I hope I get some hours at the coffeeshop soon, or else I am going to run out of money by the time I get back to baltimore. great timing, amiright????

pieces of dogs



(I just got so much film developed)

everything will be ok. everything will be ok and I am only freaking out because I am very tired.

much more than I can handle. hey! I'm gonna use some old drawings for my drawing final! I'm gonna be in dolphin all night but hopefully I'm gonna finish my etching. or at least almost finish it.

time to get serious!

I'm fucking up a lot.

I haven't been upset like that in a long time. or maybe it was scared.

taken a beating at a dan deacon concert. lololollolame

things I am thankful for:
-my family
-my friends
-my health
-being able to go to MICA
-psychic friends
-being able to see some friends before coming to Butler
-punk rock
-everything that I have learned/will learn


enjoy yr turkey, everyone!

mindfuck is-

listening to Sunn O))) and browsing this website

(revisiting an old photo I originally took for granted.)

I probably couldn't wipe that goofy grin off my face the entire night

at least I still have a sense of humor

I am feeling tired and optimistic and excited. my past few nights have basically belonged to psychic friends, I really hope this work is almost done. I want to carry the momentum over to new projects and maybe even my school work, though. need to figure myself out. need to eat a stale sandwich, too. I got some awesome boots and "dookie" on cassette at the village today. life's pretty good.

happy halloween from wayne and garth.

ben and I rode to the bridge and waterfall on falls road recently. I'm trying to better understand the concept of collaboration. also, I am trying to be better at photography. but what else is new?

I have managed to map out my week so that I get everything except modernism and russia done. but what else is new?

I feel very fortunate to be in this moment.

I also feel very tired at this moment, but looking ahead, I know I won't be resting any time soon. between the upcoming show, pulling the zine together, and my schoolwork, I've really got my work cut out for me. the stress hasn't settled in yet. sleep doesn't feel necessary anyway.

trying to keep the emotions out of this

as far as getting work done goes, this break has been useless. last night I finished my gd1 homework though. my mom called me yesterday afternoon but I forgot to call her back for several hours. when I finally got around to calling her back, she told me that my grandfather has a tumor in his lungs. she then proceeded to try and ask me how to edit a .gif image for a website (made of slices, kill me now) (hint- you can't) for fifteen minutes.
I'm just really tired. 10 minute nap til dinner yeah! there's a mouse running all over our house and I'm having a hard time caring about catching it. my mom is coming this friday and she is going to take me grocery shopping and she is going to finally take my painting from last semester home.

I keep biting the inside of my lip. a nervous cold weather habit.

we were all together for almost twenty-four hours.

out/in

didn't get much sleep last night, I feel great.